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As per the topic given to me to write about the experience which had since childhood having Ptosis in one of my eye. Lemme state that I had Ptosis in my eye since birth and having Ptosis means having a different life. When I was born then after some months my parents when to some doctors then they said that it was because of cold. They said that I could have being having cold so due to cold the eye would not be opening normally. The doctors said that it will head after some time but it didn’t healed. So my parents didn’t had any kind of option what to do so they waited for some year so that i can gather knowledge because as a child taking any kind of risk is very dangerous.
As I remember when I was of 3 years den I was taken to Disha Eye hospital, Barrackpore. Where the doctor checked my vision and then they like a community of doctors had a meeting about my eyes and then one of the doctor come to my parents and said that operating the eye is taking risk as the eye can heal or the eye could be damaged forever then my parents did not took any kind of risk with my eye and then we came back and the matter was closed because nobody wanted to take any kind of risk and then I started my school life. As I was a student of kindergarten and junior classes I did not find any kind of difference or any kind of trouble having Ptosis. because as I was child nobody used to bully me about my eyes. But as I grew older than I gathered know ledge about everything because as a child no one can understand all kind of thing but as you grow older peoples stand understanding all the things.
When I was in 9th standard I again visited a doctor near by he did said the same thing and I came back as I was a student I was bullied from many of student in the school. I was like why all this things happened to me why am I different from all other children. I used to think that I am very ugly and nobody will like to be my friend and i do hated myself and I did not like my face and it happened many time that I did started crying and due to Ptosis i was not able to face any stranger as they will think something bad about me then also I did face any kind or every situation with all my courage I showed everyone that I was very happy but truly I was broken from inside. Because of Ptosis I underestimate myself and always stayed at home so that no one can bully me. My condition was like why I had this Ptosis I did not harmed anyone then why God put me in such situation and I can’t explain but I did cried everyday because of this.
Then I stood up and changed myself I was in class 9 when I change myself I became the badest guy anyone can meet in his/her entire life then no one had the guts to bully are in front of me but I know they bullied about my eyes on my back. I then thought that yes I do have Ptosis in one of my eye but do it make any difference??? I was like all other guys. I was good in studies and was good in everything then why I do think that i am not capable of doing things from that day I changed myself. yes I do cry but don`t shout it to anyone, I do show that it don`t matter that I am like them or I am having Ptosis.le to face any stranger as they will think something bad about me then also I did face any kind or every situation with all my courage I showed everyone that I was very happy but truly I was broken from inside. Because of Ptosis I underestimate myself and always stayed at home so that no one can bully me. My condition was like why I had this Ptosis I did not harmed anyone then why God put me in such situation and I can’t explain but I did cried everyday because of this.
Then when I was in class 11. It was around mid of the year ie- September when i again went to Disha eye hospital which is now in seoraphuli. I with my dad visited the doctor. Doctor had some checkup by which he cleared his doubts and then he concluded that i have Ptosis but excluding Ptosis i was suffering from squint which he said can be treated and after 6 months of squint surgery they will be doing my Ptosis surgery and i will be normal like any other guy. Hearing all this i was in the 7th sky i can’t explain how much happy i was at that time and i did agreed for undergoing the treatment i had my squint surgery and after 6 months of squint surgery when i went  there for my next surgery of Ptosis i did went to the same doctor but he actually refused for doing so. I can’ say what i felt at that time, it was like someone pushed me from a building. I was literally scattered. I did not said a word and came back home quietly. I lost all my hopes and again started blaming myself that i could never look good what so every i do. Then I went to another Doctor after some months the name of clinic was something like Shankar Netralay there the Doctor said he can operate the eye and can make it about normal to the other eye but the way he explained about the surgery i got scared and refused for having surgery from him because I was somewhere sure that he will damage my eye, after that day i did started studying for my ISC.
After my ISC examination I joined an international BPO because I knew that I am having Ptosis and I cant get placed in any government job. so everyone know that now a days money is everything and I was worried that if I did not get a job then my future will be at stake. So as my ISC ended the day after my last exam, I started working because I cant depend on anyone for my whole life. I wanted success at any cost so I started working. I had Ptosis but I did not wanted to regret for it. It was like 8 months passed by when my elder brother said me about ‘Merchant Navy’ and he did everything for me. He did filled my form and applied in different colleges. I was like sure that I will not be selected in this too because I have Ptosis. But my elder brother said that there is nothing such that you are medically unfit. He said you are only having Ptosis which is medically a normal condition, ptosis is not declared as handicap so you are medically fit. And you just prepare for your examination which will be held by the college for the selection of student. I gave the examination in two colleges in which one was approved by government of India and the other was under AMSA ie registration under Australian shipping or something like that. said he can operate the eye and can make it about normal to the other eye but the way he explained about the surgery i got scared and refused for having surgery from him because I was somewhere sure that he will damage my eye, after that day i did started studying for my ISC.
I did cleared the examination in both the college and the government college asked me to bring all my documents including medical. I went to doctor for my medical. In which I was found medically fit when I went to the college the director of that Government College said me that I can never join merchant navy because I was having Ptosis he did insult me my elder brother fought on my behalf, he asked him how he can say me medically unfit and then we came back home. It was again a shock for me I was actually speechless. Then the other college ask for my document and medicals. I was sure that the same thing will happen again. Then also we went there, the director took my interview he saw the medicals and asked me if I can see from that eye or not when i said i can see from that eyes then he said you are medically fit for this job. I can`t say i was very happy. It took around 3 months for all examinations, Interview and medical. I am very thankful to my elder brother who didn`t thought of his job and stayed home and made me complete all the process. and because of him i got admission because he was standing on my back and did all the things. Because of this 3 months which he spend at home because of me he got punishment. As he in ITBPF he was suspended and got some more punishment. I proudly say he did everything for me.The day I got selected I believe that God do things for everyone betterment. At the present time everyone of my batch are studying in same colleges or the other but i am working under merchant navy. Yes I was bullied all the time but now everyone can see that they being medically fit can`t find the path out but me insted of having Ptosis is on my way for being a successful guy. But that was not enough God had many more gifts for me. As I completed my residential training in my college and I came back then my father asked me to make Ptosis crutches which one of doctors suggested me and when I went to Disha eye hospital for making that crutch they said they don`t make all those kinds of clutches. Then i started searching for Ptosis crutches like where it can be made then i found something which was totally unexpected. I saw the doctor who made all those was nearby.
I contacted the doctor and went to her it was like the another beautiful gift of God. Yes the person whom i am talking about is no one else but its you ma`am DR. Sumitra Agarwal. Ma`am are like truely a gift of God whom i met after several years.started working. I had Ptosis but I did not wanted to regret for it. It was like 8 months passed by when my elder brother said me about ‘Merchant Navy’ and he did everything for me. He did filled my form and applied in different colleges. I was like sure that I will not be selected in this too because I have Ptosis. But my elder brother said that there is nothing such that you are medically unfit. He said you are only having Ptosis which is medically a normal condition, ptosis is not declared as handicap so you are medically fit. And you just prepare for your examination which will be held by the college for the selection of student. I gave the examination in two colleges in which one was approved by government of India and the other was under AMSA ie registration under Australian shipping or something like that. said he can operate the eye and can make it about normal to the other eye but the way he explained about the surgery i got scared and refused for having surgery from him because I was somewhere sure that he will damage my eye, after that day i did started studying for my ISC.
As I was saying i went to her and started my treatment I said her everything. She helped in overcoming all the things. Once one Goverment doctor said me that I can never get a job in merchant Navy with ptosis but ma`am you proved it wrong by correcting my ptosis. You are the one whom I respect very much. you made everything smooth in my life. You are truly a gift of God for me.t ‘Merchant Navy’ and he did everything for me. He did filled my form and applied in different colleges. I was like sure that I will not be selected in this too because I have Ptosis. But my elder brother said that there is nothing such that you are medically unfit. He said you are only having Ptosis which is medically a normal condition, ptosis is not declared as handicap so you are medically fit. And you just prepare for your examination which will be held by the college for the selection of student. I gave the examination in two colleges in which one was approved by government of India and the other was under AMSA ie registration under Australian shipping or something like that. said he can operate the eye and can make it about normal to the other eye but the way he explained about the surgery i got scared and refused for having surgery from him because I was somewhere sure that he will damage my eye, after that day i did started studying for my ISC.
Conclusion:  God is always there for everyone and everything will happen in the correct time not before than that and not even after. Everyone gets the opportunity the thing is you need to grab it. Yes now i do say yes I have Ptosis but I can challenge anyone that the position I am at the moment, not everyone can grab that. Yes I struggled a lot but I got the result and it is awesome. Just wait for the correct time.rything for me. He did filled my form and applied in different colleges. I was like sure that I will not be selected in this too because I have Ptosis. But my elder brother said that there is nothing such that you are medically unfit. He said you are only having Ptosis which is medically a normal condition, ptosis is not declared as handicap so you are medically fit. And you just prepare for your examination which will be held by the college for the selection of student. I gave the examination in two colleges in which one was approved by government of India and the other was under AMSA ie registration under Australian shipping or something like that. said he can operate the eye and can make it about normal to the other eye but the way he explained about the surgery i got scared and refused for having surgery from him because I was somewhere sure that he will damage my eye, after that day i did started studying for my ISC.
Dr Sumitra Agarwal: ma`am no words for you. You are just awesome I did not thought that I can be normal like others but you made it true very much thankful to you, for me you are God in the face of a person.

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A blind person has a vision. But a person without vision is blind even after having eyes
----chanakya
Have you remember school days? When your teacher teaches you genetic theory of Mendel. That time you may think what a boring chapter this is. If peas reproduce their heir in the ratio of 1:2:2:1 or 9:3:3:1. Then what happen to us? If Rabbit are born with colour blindness in alternate generation. Then what is the business with us? Yes! This thinking are rotate most of the kids. Even someone make fun about Mendel activities. But what happen if this chapter inculcate with you? 
Yes. This think happen with me. But seriously speaking I am not one of them who make fun with Mendel. Instead  In the amidst of rabbit race I focus more and more on number scoring subject to score more and more. That time I memorise this logic diagram etc. etc. to gain knowledge and accuracy y in exam. But rainy days are waiting for me and I am not prepared for it. 
I have hobby in painting from child days. I love it because it give me un-accountant pleasure. Initial days, I make picture with 6B, 8B, 10B pencil. Then I move to pastel colour, water colour. But when I draw picture with colour , my painting teacher always find some fault in colour. I can`t understand clearly what happen with me. May be I drawn it in evening, or in morning, or in noon, or in night etc. I find logic in my own mind. Days past, my confidence on colour continuously decreasing. In competition, instead of colour , I used pencil only and get second , third prize but never get first prize in any of the competition. My well-wisher, friends tell me why you are use colour? If you use colour no one can beat you. But I afraid, days passed. This story just a beginning. 
My hobby chapter End in class 9. As a competitive student to score more marks in secondary I leave all social activities in school after class 9. Focus more and study. I topped in school in secondary Examination. This is a remarkable achievement in my life because I want it from class 5, but never success, always rest on second, third. This give me a boost to study. I forget everything except study in class 11 and 12. Life continues as usual. 
Again topped in class 12. Being I serious student, every one encourage me to study engineering. I started a bad chapter in my life. Which I realize later. But forget this, continues with stories.
I get a form from my college to fill up all related information and to submit authorities within a month. In this form authorities want residential, medial school related information with proper attestation. I came home.
My father working in hospital. So I have no problem to get any medical checkup. I get all within a hours like blood, urine etc. etc. But opthalmogist came some later. I move to his clinic with my Dad. I remember that days clear now when opthalmogist test my eyes. First Distant vision test; Doctor tell me the number board which is stand after 12.5m. But In mirror it magnifies to 25m (This is property of mirror, which I already read in physics Optics chapter). Bad time start in my life when he open a book like photo album and tell me to read the numbers inside it. I can`t understand what this is because I have don`t idea about it.  I can`t see all the numbers except a dotted colour circle diagram. But my dad who is sitting beside me told me focus on the book this is 2, this is 3 etc. etc. But after focusing I can`t get it. Doctor says your son is colour blind. Don`t worry I give you normal report. 
I think you may have seen thunderstorm in rainy Days. Just a ample amount of light, then darkness and darkness. I just remember the Mendel when I just exit from the clinic. That time I can`t recall all the research about Mendel. My dad talked a lot with this doctor. He clearly says it`s a genetic disease. Its cant change. He is inherited with it. After returning home I open class 9-10 biology book. Read again, but there no much about this colour blind syndrome. As a get normal certificate, I submit it my college. Year is 2010.
My family response really cool. As they don`t know what is it. Initially after coming home Dad asked me individual colour which I give 100% correct answer. They also astonished, all thing is going as usual ways. But what is mistake?  Real thing is around the world 99% people don`t have a proper knowledge of what a colur blind is. They think colour blind person not see any colour. But the real think depend on brightness and contrast. 
This colour blindness never hamper my school life even college life also. As its don`t required that time also. As I said I recognize all the colour . How make it difference? Instead I appeared more colorfully during these days. Which I missed now.
In case of confidence same applied here. What happen if you show a AK47, Insus rifle, Loaded garner Tank, Missile, etc. etc. modern weapon to Tigers? As they dont know what is it. Its create a small entertainment for them although if we use that weapon its may create a biggest blow to them. As I have little information its gone like as usual ways. 
That time I don`t know what is internet, facebook, whats app (it`s launched later), you tube. Because I live in a semi-urban area in a border region of west Bengal and Orissa (Digha) . Socio-economic development not too much there spread around the region. MNREGA, Pradhan Mantri Sadak Yojana, etc. etc. regional develoemnt agenda till now not in the main line . Inspite political scenario of west Benagl move towards up. I am not search it anymore anywhere, because I have on source. I am not talked about this matter with any of my friends as doctors tell me its disease. I`m afraid of disease, I think it`s may create a “chay pe charcha ” within our friends circle. 
I forget everything. Days passed as usual even more adventurous ways, New friends, new laptop (which I take after 1st year), computer game, Robotics etc etc. which usually happen college days. I think you also well aware of this. No need to amplify this here. 
Year 2016. Now I not a fellow boy. I`m engineer; Mechanical engineer; B. Tech, M. tech. after the B. tech I focused on Govt. job.  Applied here and there to search for good job . 
I selected many jobs, but with the continuation upto selection list through prelims, mains, I eliminated. Few of them in interview, few of them in field round (armed forces). But real blow give me when I selected in Indian railways as a goods guard post. This notification came out in 2015 when I studied M. Tech. I am not noticed too much, just filled it . After selection they mail me for document verification. They uploaded all the required form in website, medical certificate is one of them. I realized this may kick me. I contacted a doctors through my Dad. He clearly declined to give me normal medical report. This time year is 2016, not 2010. I have strong believe in internet. During my college days when I face any problem, I just google it . It give me assured solution within a second. I search a lot in internet about remedies of this disease. But failed to manage it. Every forum tells it`s a blessings of God (negatively), its cant change. My all hard work, all Ethics, all inspiration just gone waste because of the conspiracy of the God. It`s a default syndrome which I can`t change if I sacrifice my entire life like Balmiki in Ramayana Days, Mahisasur in mythical story. Mahisasur also affected by conspiracy of God during distribution of eternity fruit. He is fighting for the change. And of course he changed it for few days. But Alas! I can`t change. My entire bhakti just disappeared within a few days. I became sadist, reclause boy. 
Coming to the condition of colour blind person. According to the medical report 8% of men affected by colour blindness   around the world. Colour blindness herited by X gene. As women have two gene (XX) , you rarely found female colour blind person. Most of the cases its men as they carry XY gene. In the series of colour blind most of the cases are red –green colour blind, there are also blue, colour blindness. 
Our govt. give reservation Quota to disabilities person which is constitute 2% people but they ignore colour blind person, as they can`t manage sympathy with their painful eyes. If you colour blind, most of the mass recruiter agency reject you at the last stage after lot of pain line defence, police, PSU etc. 
By the ways, days come for final Document verification. It`s in Guwahati. They send us for medical to Alipurduar divisional railways medical hospital. Where they are not clearly rejected me, but send me New jalpaiguri divisional railways medical hospital for remedical. I gone there. This doctor is like moral man. He is not saying me anything, except “we will contact you, later”. I know what happen later. Being a responsible serious candidate I know what wait for me later. 
I became furious instead of being nervous. I can`t see myself to lost in a battle due to lack of arms and ammunition. I find two or three doctors around India. Just quick round on them. They demand that it`s can curable 100%. I`m astonished. Is it true?  Woo…. I constantly monitoring them. Within few Days I realized yes, it`s possible. I get confidence in myself, something going to happen. 
I found many legend around the world. Those work really change the shape in medical history. From Charak and susrut in Ancient medical History to louse pasture to non-curable cancer, all of them get right direction in last stage. I think your (Dr. sumitra Agarwal) name come to the next list. May be you are the modern days VESTA (Roman goddess of Health) to came my life to recover me from this bloody situation. 
I am on the ways of treatment, just passed five days. Strictly followed the instruction from the doctors as its may give me a new birth. Don`t know what happen, what is waiting me for next. May be I am the next Julius Caesar to speak the world Veni, vidi, vici (`I came, I saw, I conquered).

Biswajit Ghosh

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